I guess I can lay things out, but that is due to being in therapy a long time (and also being in training so I see the inner workings a bit more now). Still I suppose because the idea of trying to do a positive thing like developing a particular self-care idea, which is elusive, this whole idea is not typical of me. I tend to be an intensity junkie and go for that intense stuff however negative. So to entertain another approach is very much hypothetical, just on paper so to speak, which might be why it is producing a feeling of not knowing which way to go.