I seriously know what to do about this. See this post and follow the instructions for "SNAP CLUB"

http://forums.psychcentral.com/depre...n-escaped.html

This will use the things you are doing in your everyday life to heal you and strengthen you. You start with tiny, tiny, tiny decisions you make every day. After practicing for a while, you'll find that you DO have the power to stop those obtrusive, repetitive thoughts and feelings that are torturing you.

- vital