My bf wants me to do things that I'm not comfortable doing yet. He doesn't understand that my last relationship was so abusive and terrifying that I can't. I loved my gf so much and she just neglected me, held a knife on me, and brought in men to have sex with me.

I can't explain enough how hurt I was by her actions. I wanted her, not the men. Now I'm with a man and don't know how to not let my past relationship interfere. I'm trying to be good for him, but I can't when I've been hurt so badly.

I want things to work out with him, but if only he could understand. He's always making jokes about me being with a woman and it hurts because he won't keep in mind that it was a bad relationship.

I hurt. Plain and simple. When will the pain end for me and when can I move on?