Warning...novel here haha

So, my friend and I have known each other for about 6 years now. We met at work and we've been close for the last 5 years.

I was about 19 when we started working together and have struggled with my depression, suicidal thoughts and all that stuff through the 6 years, and she has really helped me with the long journey to actually want to try recovery and to try to keep choosing recovery.

She's very wise--she's actually about 8 years older than me, so she has a lot of great advice! And she's empathetic and doesn't judge me for the stupid decisions I've made...she's really been a great friend!

I've gone through a couple of relapses the last two years and she has always been the first person I've confessed my relapse to--you know, practice before I tell my parents/therapist so I can get the support I need.

ANYWAY.

My last relapse was different. I told her about it but unlike usual, I didn't go into details with her as to why I relapsed. I didn't feel the need to. I felt like I had a better handle on the situation than previous times.

Since then, things have just been...different. I don't talk to her as much as I used to and I feel like when we go out to lunch we have nothing to talk about--like the only thing that we had in common was talking about how I can overcome my struggles.

We've recently gotten in a bit of a fight and I'm thinking maybe this would be a good opportunity to just let us go our separate ways?

Advice is welcome, but if you can relate with a story, that's cool too cause I feel kind of alone/lost/whatever. Thanks in advanced! And bravo if you made it this far haha