I'm angry and sad, I'm frustrated and confused. I wish I could just deal with all that is going on without fearing I will fall and loose it all.

yes I am talking my meds, yes I have an appointment..but until then I still must deal with all this and keep some sanity so I can take care of someone, keep my job, keep the friends I still have.

I wish I had more time to fix things, because I know that I need to rest well, I need that things be stable and organized...but now there is so much going on..or maybe I see it that way that I feel really really fragile but I have no choice to face all of this and it's hard.

Tomorow I hope It will be better.