perna.. i know but it is like an addiction.. all of it. Because she been right on so much everytime i hear something i automatically assume all the bad is gonna happen. I have panic attacks and my parents have intervened and have me on suicide watch. I feel devestated and im not trying to be poor me but i am so heartbroken i cannot function daily. Today is the first day i got up and washed my hair and looked presentable in the last week. I went to lunch with my sister and actually had a nice time. I went and got a couple of self help books so i am trying but almost every morning is the worst for me. I am not sure if it is the xanax i am on or what.. i wonder if when it wears off it makes me feel worse. I had a panic attack before my sis showed up and im not sure if they will go away anytime soon.