I am soo terrified please help me. I feel so much inside and I do not know what to do. Too many voices, I am too little. I do not understand what is happening. I am trying here and it is almost too much. Too many memories and it hurts me. I am afraid to tell but I need to. Part of me is running for the delete button, part of me is screaming NO. I am fighting inside. I do not understand reaching out. I do not understand being heard. I do not understand safety. Someone tells me it is okay but inside and out it hurts. It hurts to be silent. It hurts to be heard. They said they would know. They said do not tell. How long can one keep it inside? It is all tearing me apart. Because I want to trust but I do not know how. I try and I try but it just gets worse. I fear I have not said anything here and yet I have said it all. I am soo afraid. I am sooo afraid.

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