Hi charliesangel81

I understand the "denial" of behavioural issues. Yes, I think I do this sometimes too.

Please feel free to correct me.

You have stated "I cannot stop thinking about it". This is in regards to your husband being unfaithful.

I can certainly understand the strain that such thoughts would place on any relationship. We all need to feel secure and validated.

Oh I've had random thoughts that have perhaps once in a while flicked through my mind where I may have thought "What if my husband is cheating?" But it's just a fleeting thought. It's not one that persistently stops me from functioning on a day to day basis, is where I kind of sense the difference here.

When I've suffered paranoia it has normally been congruent with my anxiety levels being too high. It certainly can feel uncomfortable that's or sure.

I see that you say you have "denied" your bipolar diagnosis? I am wondering then if per chance you are seeing a psychiatrist to at least receive proper meds to help stabilise your mood? And then work on the possibility of marriage counselling.

I know it's hard but at the moment your goal is mental stability. Please don't make decisions / actions that will push him away permanently. It doesn't sound to me like you're ready to make a decision just yet. I think your mental health and stability comes first here.

Please take care of yourself.