we ave all done things we regret. deeply regret. things we cant take back. this illness ****ing sucks. i ranted with my t that bipolar was my god, the one consistent in my life, that it controled my desitiny. i still feel guilty about things i have done but i dont let it depress me because i know i have an illness that prevents me from making wise choices. causses me to do crazy *** ****. but i have always done the best i can with what i have and i am proud of that. i can t get blood out of a turnip but i have made the best turnip soup possible. maybe people dont like turnip soup but the is the best i have to offer. dont be so hard on yourself.