Hi d.o.a. I'd say that you have some amazing insight there (and in some of your past posts!!!) :
"Now, I don't care what people think - if they can't accept me for who I am (especially for something I have no control over and can't do anything about - an illness!! - and that's a million times worse for me than it ever could be for anyone else) - they can go F themselves! I'm bloody sick of trying to please people............"
"I am, in fact, worthy no matter what - even if I grew a third arm out of my head or something and people laughed".
So do you think some of it is about having the confidence to apply some of that in imagined or real situations???
Now you've got some great "go to" passages in your (own!!) posts, threads like the above, for inspiration (and believe me, lots of us can back those up, bigtime!!)........so do you think you could write those ones down for yourself/list them off..........and try to focus on that/their actual reality???
You have clearly got it in you to work through this........respect!!! And naturally you've still got our support too!!
But of course it's going to be hard, remembering that "mindset" when you're actually in situations.........and don't fault yourself if you slip, if you feel vulnerable, that's OK You can keep going, keep working on that.
Seriously there is so much more to you than an illness.........it shouldn't define you to anybody/anybody that matters/anybody who is going to matter..........just try to allow the rest of you to shine, hey??
And people have stood in the way of your dreams for long enough, right??!! People who have no right to do that..........so time to take back that power?? You seriously deserve it!!!!

Alison