I have f**ked up again, while trying to be a friend I said the wrong thing,,I'm not very smart and my good intentions do not seem to be enough..So I publicly say I am sorry to anyone I have offended here..I keep doing this because I so desperatly need to feel needed other wise I sink into that goo that is always there sucking me down...it is getting worst every day and my pdoc just ignores me when I beg for a ad,..no response needed unless you want to take me to task,,, again I am sorry..