I keep thinking about my ex and an old friend. They're both long gone (the first more than the second, but the second just left my life randomly and won't talk to me even though he's still reachable unlike my ex).

Well...these are people I don't want to think about. It doesn't make me feel good and I often dream about my ex because of it. And most of those dreams are not good ones. They're all about how much I miss her or my mind inventing that she's with someone new (no idea if she is in real life...we have not talked in about 3 months now and I'm not about to ask our mutual friends).

I'm just so mad I keep thinking about her. And I'm occasionally mad I think about my old friend too.

It's so bad lately. I am angry with my thoughts now because they come too often. They use to come every now and then and I could brush them off, but it has gotten so hard to do that lately. I don't feel like myself. I should be happy and past it all, but I'm just not and I hate that so much. I want to be free of this suffering. I swear I'll never date anyone again and not get my hopes up about how friends aren't suppose to just walk out of your life without much of a warning. This sucks. I literally feel insane, angry, and sad. It's getting worse each day and every night I dream.

Do you all have any suggestions about how to deal with this? I can't take it anymore.

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