I am have trouble leaving, I love my h more than anything but he emotional and occasionally physical abuse it overwhelming. I seem to care more about him than he cares about himself, I wake up happy while he awaits for some reason to gossip or complain. Our sex life is decreasing by the day, and I almost have to beg for affection. The lies hurt most of all, he lies constantly and I think he doesn't even realize how much he lies......I love him deeper than what can be imagined but am so tired of the pain. I fear if I leave him I will either always be alone or will go through another long stint of years before I realize the major issues.
Don't know what to do.