Taking things out of order, yes, I am interested in art therapy and this therapist strongly recommended when we first started because he saw that I rely on verbal abilities when access to non-verbal is really important. So I did have a huge notebook and used chalk to draw abstractly based on mood. I did once produce a very vivid expressive picture of a volcano. I could try going back to that and see what happens.

The things I do like mediation and Tai Chi are disciplined activities. It is a bit like boot camp sometimes in the way it feels. Often when doing them something frees up, but I still have to make myself do these things. They don't attract me in terms of being fun or light or releasing. Just as exercise doesn't. They are beneficial and have a balancing effect, but are work.

I work too much and too hard. I need something as intense that is the opposite. Something creative, involving, enjoyable, freeing...those are things I mean by playful. I'm not a musician and don't have a lot of resources so I have to be modest about what I come up with. So far I draw a blank.