The anger is very recent. There has been some stress that is definitely contributing, but it is clear that very old stuff is being activated. Again according to my therapist this is a good thing for me, but it is also very difficult.

I can't say exactly why now. I think that it could be in the wake of processing some trauma material. It also could be that I have reached a point where I am able to experience anger directly.

I used to have more fun activities that I would do frequently. For various reasons these haven't been part of my life for a while now. And when I try to go back to them, I usually fall short and don't carry through. It seems I need to find something new.

I used to write poetry and post online about it, plus go to writing groups and so on. I don't really have the interest in poetry now. I do have an interest in creative non-fiction, but it is a bit time consuming and doesn't come naturally so is still a bit like work.

I also used to go tide pooling at low tides. I know all the invertebrates and love poking around as well as taking pictures. But when I drive to the beaches that have pools I tend to turn around instead of doing it. It doesn't feel the same.