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Originally Posted by unguy
On thing that T's have never been able to help with is that, to me, feelings of love are met with dread. Yes, I can say that I understand those feelings come from parental rejection as a child and also as a teen and adult. Still, I cannot override those feelings because of years of rejection by others. I've met with so much rejection and abuse as an adult that just treating my childhood is not enough.
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i was severely abused throughout my childhood, and anything relating to love is always met with dread.
my abuser constantly told me he loved me. therefore i associated love with pain, and that made me dread it.
for the most part of my childhood, i was completely incapable of love.
the fact that my mother is his sister and never noticed the abuse or helped me means that i have a massive maternal abandonment issue.
i also have BPD features... as yet am undiagnosed, but this certainly doesn't help my grasp of relationships/love.