Thank you for sharing all of this Perna. I can not say that it makes me feel better but it is reality. I suppose you do feel that you have more tools to weave your life's cloth. You have created alot of change in your life after your therapy. Do you possibly feel the internal change (I hope you feel there was lots of change... tell me) was during therapy and the external change was moreso after therapy.

I feel that during my times of feeling lost that I do think of having another yard sale...had one last October.. but somehow the "stuff" is a comfort so I am not sure how much I am willing to give up all at one time.

I admire your journey Perna. I suppose I want you to tell me that life is better and easier and that therapy was valuable and what you might have hoped for. Of course we might have hoped for different things.

So this keeps me thinking that one might need to quit at some point of give up the falacy of what it may provide ultimately. That makes me anxious... and I can believe that as you said ..things would be more intense for a bit.

Your closure... was it a matter of grieving and/or finishing up certain topics or what.. Can you speak to that?