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Old Jun 03, 2007, 07:46 PM
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I probably have ADD, OCD, Anxiety and Clinical depression.Thats what all the quizzez suggest. And I've been reading a lot about symptoms. I'm pretty sure I suffer from all 4 disorders.
I'm 21 yrs old and in college. As a child, a lot was expected of me. Especially since my father went to the top university of the country. (I'm from India BTW). Imagine an american earning a full scholarship to harvard's engineering college. Something like that.
But I could never even score average marks, let alone excel in academics. As a result, I went throught a lot of emotional trauma and stress. My parents and my high school teachers were always on my case. My dad is a short tempered guy. Sometimes he would just lose it and he'd just keep screaming at me for weeks. He would sit in my room all day, make sure I was studying and would just constantly keep shouting at me. My high school teachers did everything possible to make my teenage years miserable. Teachers in India believe that torturing kids makes them tougher. And that the academically poor kids are actually bad and immoral kids. Somehow I graduated from high school and got into a decent college. But I had to take an year off to prepare for my board exams (the indian equivalent of the american SATs)
As a result, I have developed an apathy towards everything that is even remotely related to academics. Everytime I open a course book, or think about exams or just hear the words "Physics", "Chemistry" and "Mathematics", it sort of reminds of all the trauma that I went through. I start going through all the same emotions and eventually I start getting an anxiety attack.
I can't even do simple things like going to class, submitting
assigments, etc etc. Everytime a professors talks to me in a condescending tone, it reminds of my high school teachers. They make me feel so small, I just want to pass out of existence.

My questions is : Can this be a case of post traumatic stress disorder? Or does PTSD only happen in cases of extreme events like war, car accident, rape etc etc?