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Originally Posted by Tucson
I blame myself for the failures in my life.
How can I forgive myself? What I did to others? What I did to myself? I am now on disability. I continue to have problems with my mind, both affective and cognitive. My daughter deserves better. Not the crazy father. But one who is stable in all aspects of his life, in his relationships and a successful career that can pay for her college. Be a good example to her.
I have said enough.  |
I've been on disability for five years and diagnosed bipolar for 21. I sometimes ask myself the same questions you have written here. My daughter, one worry you have commented about, loves me and is putting herself through school. Your daughter can do the same. Honest.
About employment, there are Vocational Rehabilitation services that, if your pdoc says you're ready, you can go through and perhaps find employment.
The road to forgiveness is different for each of us. Mine started with asking my Higher Power to do the forgiving *for* me, for I could not -- and the path started with me trying to live in the present and not in the past, which I could not change.