I've been forcing myself to get at least some calories in every day because I'm in theatre and our show just opened so I've been rehearsing for more than 12 hours a day all week. At first, I asked close friends to sit with me so I had support around eating, and for a few days it was wonderful, but I started to feel like they'd rather eat with the group, so I backed off and tried to do it on my own. I was reasonably successful. I was doing pretty well on my own. But trigger:


So now I have a whole 2 and a half days where I don't have any reason to eat (no shows until Wednesday, no reason to make sure I can run around and act and sing and dance)

It's my first real test to see if I can continue the progress I've made, but in all honesty, I think I'm going to revert back to heavy restriction. And after the show, for sure.

I got an e-mail from the outpatient program I was referred to saying that there MAY be a group for me in the summer, more information to come. Great. May be, and summer. What do I do until then?