At this point, I am okay with going IP, after talking to my friend and reading these and thinking about it, even though I think I'm fine. My mom on the other hand doesn't want me to go and is trying her hardest to keep me out and deal with it on her own. I have told her that I don't trust myself anymore, but she says that she will keep trusting me. I know that I am crazy, but I just accepted it. I will try to get her to call tomorrow my therapist and pdoc and see what happens. Clearly, if it is worrying everyone else, then there is a problem, even if I don't see it, then I should listen to them instead of my brain. I'll keep you guys updated.