yes. every night i get into these huge paranoid episodes and i freak out. im trying really hard to not get there tonight. i wrote a letter to myself earlier. like the one T wrote me. its to remind me of when i felt safe and not crazy. reminding me that i am safe and i will make it thru the night. i just want to be normal, you know.... i dont want to be crazy anymore... i know all this is happening bc im transitioning off the shot. its bound to be rough for a little bit. but emotionally i feel sad about how crazy i get and i feel embarrassed about it later. it makes me feel stupid. like i should just get a grip.