I know the feeling, when you are in such a deep hole it is hard to imagine there will ever be a way out. This probably won't feel encouraging, but I found it useful. Even if you feel like ***** just keep doing those little things that will make your life better….keeping on top of bills, eating right, exercising, keeping your place as clean as you can manage, sending out resumes etc. When I was unemployed for 2 years I just bombarded any place I could think of with my resume, tailored cover letter, and tons of applications. For every 200 applications I may have gotten 6-7 interviews. Very depressing and hard work but this repetition eventually found me good work.

I don't mean to minimize what you are going though. Just saying that going through the motions like a robot can get you there. I really believe that persistence is 90% of success . But it sucked and was not a fun time I won't lie about that.