Alone again
I'm all alone with my head
Hurt again
I've hurt myself one more time
Can't pass this off on someone else
I try to hide it but I do this to myself
Crying again
Tears pave streets down my cheeks
Screaming again
My actions rip my throat raw
I could blame you, say this is your mess
I'd know I was lying to myself but it would hurt less
Alone again
I'm all alone with my head
And the pain keeps coming through my body
Hurt again
I've hurt myself once again
My face is a map of pain

My chest pain is really bad today. The twitching is in my fingers now. I tried a simple glass of water. I was trying to get something in before I was brave enough to go for the blood work that I was supposed to do on Friday. Well I didnt go. Like I said; "my actions rip my throat raw." Not even water. Sick, my head is just sick. My little girl went to a birthday party, so I sent my son and bf out for supper. I dreaded the fact that I would have to cook and tell them once again, I do feel well, I cant eat. So here I am, in pain and all alone.

justy