I received a mail package from my mom today out of the blue, for no apparent reason. We haven't spoken in 3 months which is very normal for us because we don't have a good relationship and I've tried to stay No Contact with her in the past. Inside the package was a Psychology Today magazine that said "Let It Go" in big letters on the front. There was a post-it note on the front in her handwriting that said "Thought you would find this mag interesting - mom". And inside the magazine there was an old letter from my kindergarten teacher to my mom that said "Thank you Mrs ___, for volunteering to make playdoh for the class." and it had a playdoh recipe written on it.
I am soo confused by this. It just doesn't make sense to me. I don't understand her motivation behind sending this. I don't understand if this is vindictive or what. She is a very vindictive person and this type of thing is not unusual for her to do, she's been playing these mind games since my childhood. She was abusive and an alcoholic throughout my childhood.
It was very triggering for me today.
I don't know how to respond to this and I don't want to talk to her. I don't know what to do. Part of me wants to call her and be like "What the ***?" but I know for a fact she will play dumb and use my response to her advantage, telling all her friends and her creepy husband how horrible I am to her or that she was "just trying to help". Omg.
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