Thanks for replying. I do want to go to university and the point of the professors not noticing I'm there will help me. Not because it means I can skip class and get away with it, but it'll reduce my anxiety in terms of there wont be any pressure to turn up and so I wont avoid turning up at all. It's weird and I don't expect anyone to understand it fully, but I avoid things I'm asked to do or put under pressure to do. I know that's not going to be good for holding a job or even handing work in at university, but that's what I'm working through with the mental health people I see currently.

I spoke with my mum earlier today and we came up with a plan (kind of, it has a lot of dependencies and such). I'm going to finish the last 3 months of this academic year and do my exams the best I can. My mum is going to talk to college and see about getting homework deadlines extended for every piece of homework (so I don't have anxiety around asking for extensions) so I can focus on revising and doing well in the exams. And then next year I'll either do a BTEC which is a vocational course (all coursework and no exams - not sure about this to be honest), get an apprenticeship (having a job whilst gaining a qualification at the same time) or do distance learning. I want to do distance learning because I feel it would be best suited to me. I'm a very independent learner - if I was allowed, I'd do all my a-levels at home and I'd get As in the exams, just because I'm better at teaching myself the content rather than having a teacher do it (as long as I have the course content materials).

I might try that, speaking to my tutor or learning support when I get work to do and have them talk it over with me. Sometimes it's not even that I can't do it, I know the content, only sometimes I get it stuck in my mind that I "can't" do it and so I avoid even looking at it. For tomorrow though, I'm going to have to just suck it up and say I haven't done it. D;