hi bobspero
i wouldnt blame yourself. you were responding to authority and friendship. you did the right thing by reproting but your felt trapped in the middle and didnt know what to do. that broke you. i hope you are in counseling to deal with this trauma. welcome to psych central. you will find we have several forums where you can post about your concerns and receive feedback from other members. you will get a lot of support here. again, welcome