can i rant right a long with you? i hate it too. i am cycling right now after being stable for so long. i tried checking into the hospital last night after feeling so out of control. i remember once reading a story my teen daughter wrote about my mothers whose brain is head together with elmers glue that melts every time it rains and she falls apart. that really hurt me. i just posted last night about how bipolar sucks..............hang in there.