I was horribly verbally abusive to my ex-wife and had a raging temper around my kids. I never hit them.

I am struggling so badly. I'm on the verge of homelessness. I am so incredibly depressed. I cut myself for the first time about a week ago because I've been thinking about suicide. I have so many regrets and so much guilt.

I don't want to end up homeless. I'd rather be dead than homeless. I don't want to die because I'll never see my kids again. We were best friends. I'm so broken...