I think I know how how feel, I have Had OCD quite severely since I was in middle school. Strangely at first I had many compulsions, but with CBT and a lot of work I seemed to have weeded out almost all of my compulsions. My Obsessions on the other hand continued to get worse. It got to the point that I was spending 14 hours a day locked in these thoughts that seemed extremely important, so important it seemed impossible to do anything that might divert my attention. Alas once night came and I was ready to go to sleep (after intense gridlock worry and thought from the moment I woke up) I would then go on to wake myself up in the night screaming and kicking. Just a year ago that was my daily life, but now things are different. I can go out of the house and do things that divert my attention, it is still hard but I can now live a more or less normal life.
The things that have changed in my life were believe it or not the introduction of an antipsychotic and "Spiting the obsession" which is essentially doing or not doing whatever the obsession is inhibiting you from doing or not doing. That's kind of confusing so I give an example: I am stuck in an obsession centered on an image that I would like to paint, I've given it plenty of time and now it's time for me to move on. Except I can't and the thought starts to circulate, SOMETHING does not seem right SOMETHING is very WRONG. It is at this moment I decide to "Spite the Obsession" and go to work (or doing something that will come in between the circular thoughts).
It's Kind of interesting because without the anti psychotic I can't do this, the thought is just to important.
Anyway don't give up, keep trying new therapies and working with your doctor and eventually you will at least be able to find some balance in your life
I've gone through 24 medications before finally finding the ones that seem to work
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