I never understand how I feel... But I get crazy mood swings, one second I'm happy, then angry. I get over excited to very depressed. My moods changes threw out the day. But at the end of the day I honesty donor understand how I truly feel. It's like emptiess. When I see people cry, I don't know how to feel, like I have no sympathy but try to. I'm trying to understand emotions but I cant. I have a boyfriend one second I love him, then next minute I hate him, but I don't want him to leave. I change how I look how dress often, I don't know who I am as a person. I can make friend really easy, but keeping then is really hard. I don't like getting close to people, there no point people come and go, That's life. I have to be perfect 24/7, the way I look, the way act, everything I do has to be perfect, it's like a obsession of being perfect. My ego is really high, I think I'm a goddess and everyone wants to be me, and then some days I feel like everyone is after me. I feel like I'm the most powerful person on this earth. But I also don't know who I am as a person, don't understand my real emotions. I think I have random mood swing to cover up how I really feel, or become numb . I don't know. I have to get what I want, and I mulipulate anyone I can to get what I want. When people try to leave me, i get very angry or very sad and threaten to hurt myself for them to stay. I'm really impulsive I over spend money, will drink or do drugs, put myself in dangerous situation, only when I hit bordom or complete emptiness. I hate that I put my family threw this, I feel really guilty.. What wrong with me....