So I am just so sad!

I could post on the depression forum, the alcohol forum, the SI forum, the suicide forum, or this one...

I am crying on the inside and lone drinking on the outside, and abusing prescription drugs (just today), and grieving for the end of family life as I knew it, and wanting to really hurt myself!

I hadn't drunk for five days until yet more financial crap that I didn't create fell into my lap, and I feel sad and hopeless and like a death happened! The death of life as I thought I knew it.

Theres no way i'd tell friends and family what's really going on. I'm not a trusting person, but I feel so alone.

My shrink said that knowing what my husband has done with all our money would make me feel better!

If staggering drunk and wanting to stab myself is "better," then he's right! Otherwise he's SUPER WRONG!!!

So much sadness! So little relief! So few ideas on how to fix it!

Anyone have any wise words?

FT