I tend to take revenge, but more passive aggressive, I used to do bad things without them knowing. Nobody wants to know what I did. However I've stopped. So much guilt afterwards and years later. I've spent so much time plotting, staying awake, then feel empty after the deed. Sorry About my disturbing post, I'm being honest.

Then I learned that those who are hurt, will hurt others, I am hurt but so are the rest of us. I don't take things so personally anymore,, idk if I'm detaching from my deepest emotions, if it's healthy or not, but for now, it is working. That's why I do t care about my past anymore. It's sort of leaving time and space to find my own happiness, I wished someone would've described something like this for me earlier