It just I have my own emotional baggage
My Chinese mother disapproved my relationship because my husband is a non-Chinese.
'm struggling with trying to be a fialial daughter eventhough mom treats me like craps. Trying to satisfied my culture, and trying to adapt to my non-Chinese husband 'style' of affection.

I do have an emotionally abusive mother, who belittle me and verbally abuse me throughout my whole childhood. This cause me to have low self-worth as an adult.

It also have something to do with how I was raise, not seeing any affection at all in my childhood.
I grow up in the traditional Chinese family that does not show affection at all. There was no saying 'I love you' between parents and children. There was no hugs, no goodnight kisses. No physical display of affection between children, parents, relatives family.
Eventhough my family immigrant to USA for 20 years already, but they still very old-fashioned.

So growing up not seeing affection. Now married to my husband, he get all intense affectionate to me. It just make me feel kindda awkward.

I guess it cultural difference. I'm 30, husband is 29 year olds and non-Chinese.
We do have a big cultural difference between us. But I'm getting use to it. He is my husband now, so this is his 'style' of showing affection.

I dunno, he just put his lips on my butt and give it a kiss. He didn't do anything kinky. Perhaps it just a gesture that he loves his wife. But I can't seem to get used to affection.