I have been raped as well. I do not have the same issues as you. I want nothing to do with sex. Rape affects us all differently. Neither way is Wrong or Right.

I cannot offer you any advice. All I can say is that we are here, and we are listening. Sometimes that helps me more then anything. To have someone care and some one listen and they are not paid to care.

Have you tried looking at Rape & Sexual Abuse Survivor Message Board, Support Forums & Chat Room It is a site for survivors of rape and sexual abuse. It has helped me hugely. Maybe it could help you to.