i just found out some time back that my sister has ADD
this makes me angry at everyone who has made fun of her or questioned about her...i am a million trillion miles away from her ...i used to be her protecter ...i protected her from our parents (her real father (my stepdad) and our mother) they used her ..trained her like a monkey to hurt me...i am feeling very far away from her....i dont talk to her..and that is my fault......it is my fault but she is too young yet to see the truth ...and i fear she might never know it .....but that is not her truth to bear...it is mine....and therefore....i must bear it alone.....and never be allowed to speak to her until she is grown with her own cell phone...but i am saving up in case she needs a way out.....i will be her backup plan even if she might not know it.....this is terrible....really bad guilt for the one girl i really love...my sister....
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"You look at me, and you dont like what you see. But this is the price of living with you, Mother. "
- White Oleander
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