i took paxil only at the urging of my husband (soon to be an ex-husband). he even asked his mother and sister to get it for me because i didnt believe i had to take them. my husband is not a psychologist or psychiatrist. he is not a doctor. he actually was a database administrator when we lived in california. we've lived in france for the last 7 years.

the last year i was with him, i took half a pill a day and then i stopped. i know what you feel about being apathetic and lazy. that's what i felt. i knew something was wrong (with my family) but i was just apathetic about the whole thing. my eldest daughter vaguely told me about my husband (her step-father) sexually molesting her when she was 9 years old. she refused to tell me the details. this was in 2003. perhaps because of multiple factors : i was scared to do something about it ; i was apathetic because of the paxil i took ; and most of all because my daughter didnt tell me the details - i let it slide and put myself on a wait and see mode. this was the biggest mistake ever. while i was putting myself on a wait and see mode, my husband was already planning his entire exit strategy.

now, i have lost everything because of my daughter's experience. i lost my home, my job, everything that i ever worked for in my life. i came to france with over a million euro and i ended up homeless. it seems to me that i share the same symptoms. like you, i get anxious, my hand tingle, shoulders and neck hurt and i have a shortness of breath. the medicine - Lysanxia helps me a lot with this. i take half a pill to get rid of the anxiety. a box of lysanxia ( i think there's about 20 pills in the box) lasts me for about 3 months as i take half a pill only when i get anxious.