Soccer Mom, you've expressed some really intense and painful emotions here in the forums, without intellectualizing or stopping. Maybe you didn't pound the keyboard and kick the screen, but you verbalized serious painful emotions that keep coming back at you. It's there, it's up front, you're honest. I would not be surprised to hear you've cried while writing posts and reading responses in the forums. That's expressing emotion.

Maybe you're holding back in the therapy room with your T, both verbally and with physical manifestations like tears, for many complicated reasons and she's getting the idea that maybe you've got a problem with expressing emotion.

Maybe over-controlled in front of T? Is that a possibility?