Hi Hallie-having OCD & depression I can certainly relate to having to deal with intrusive thoughts-mine are often constant-I write sometimes both journal & just repeating cycles that are in my head-some of it is pretty interesting poetry-I draw & paint & often at times when my thoughts are very intrusive I draw what that "looks" like inside my head if that makes any sense. Also I do very physical things at times-strenuous uphill hiking for me usual quiets my mind some-also exercise & loud music. I find great peace with meditation at times & prayer can also help-however that is not a cure all for mental or physical illness & I feel very sad that someone that should have helped & supported you made you feel sad. Please take care & take your prn meds if you need them-that's what they are for-sending big hugs & lots of positive energy your way