I didn't know where I should put this topic but it's related to anorexia...
I've been struggling with anorexia for 2 years now and have never gone to a counselor. I also drink, smoke pot occasionally, and have a very long history of being sexually abused by my father. I'm also 16.
Anyways, for the past 1-3 months, I've had this voice in my head named Lucy. She's sassy and says what she wants. She tells me that I'm stupid, ugly, not smart, a bunch of other spiteful words, and that I need to loss more weight. I also do this thing where I argue with her (or myself?) back and forth ALL the time. "yes, do it or else you're stupid." "Don't eat that." (voice) "But I don't want to do that." (me) I sometimes end up doing what the voice says and other times I don't.
I have absolutely no idea what's going on and I feel like I'm going crazy. Can someone please tell me what's going on!? Is this a bad thing that I have this voice in my head? Right now it's saying no?