Yesterday was a bit of crazy day... I didn't get my caffeine (which is what I am obsessed of buying at the moment) I normally get in the morning so I am guessing my mania turned mixed or to pure anger because I was blowing up on everyone and I was completely sure I was going to time travel to get away from everyone. I took double the dose of anti-depressant thinking it will make me euphoric but it just took control of my mind and forced me to come home after running away... Ended up hiding in my closet for 12 hours so that the cameras and people couldn't see me.

Today I have appointment at 2 with my T and my mom told her everything. My T wants me evaluated by this center and see what I actually have because my pdoc is stupid and won't diagnosed me, even though he said that I have bipolar tendencies. Everyone else says that it is, but I don't know exactly. Today I ran to store in the snow (which is very pretty) and got my caffeine and now I am dancing to my favorite songs as loud as my mom will let me :P I don't use the caffeine as an energy booster, I use it as a mood booster. Without it, I am still jacked up crazy but extremely angry at everyone and I know I get dangerous. I haven't eaten anything except gummy bears and almonds for three days, and of course caffeine :P I am hoping I will become invincible and never need sleep and food again.