I told my T. 9 months ago when my mom was sick that people were coming up with tears in their eyes and expressing their emotion. I said I want to be able to do that for others - I want them to see that I feel something. Another example, I want to cry in front of my T. for many reasons but one is probably to be comforted. I feel the emotions inside but they can't come out, I guess.

I guess it makes it more real seeing a name attached to it and further evidence I was emotionally neglected. I didn't even ask her if it's changeable but I hope so. She did point out (as well as friends) that I'm much better at being vulnerable and telling people my feelings. I just don't always have a name for them. I have the basics: mad, sad, happy, etc. but not deep.

So, yes I want to change and hope it's possible (which it seems from Yellowbuggy's post). A lot of times I feel weird for NOT being able to express emotions. As much as I've told my T., it's amazing and sad that I haven't shed one tear. And, I think it makes me wonder exactly what my emotional neglect was like.