Hello everyone,

I'm new to this forum. I have just been recently diagnosed with BP I with rapid cycling episodes, and I'm still struggling to identify which are my feelings and which are related to my disorder.

For three weeks now, I have been going through a mixed episode that I first thought was just another manic episode. I take prozac 40mg, lamictal 25mg (just recently increased to twice daily) and saphris (started with 5mg at night and now it's 10mg at night). The doctor has also prescribed Valium 5mg three times daily, which I'm afraid of getting addicted to.

I've come here for support. I'm exhausted. My body cannot keep up with me anymore. I'm extremely desperate and sad, and extremely restless at the same time. My anxiety is at its highest, and I'm emotional all the time. I cannot perform any tasks without feeling stressed out, but at the same time I'm afraid of the times when I'm alone or not working because my restlessness kicks in. I'm exhausted!

When this is going to end? Any advises?