I used to feel this way, but that feeling went away over time and I think I was just looking for a reason to get off the medicine. Initially it did make me feel blunted emotionally, not sure if this is the feeling you're referring to....it also made my mind less active. But those things are what the medicine is supposed to do. Eventually I got to some sort of equilibrium and it is not so bad anymore. That said, because parts of my episode were quasi-manic, I do tend to miss the "high" points a bit every so often, probably because I'm so leveled out now.

I have been on AAP's for 6 years now. I've had ups and downs, but have been completely stable since my last dose adjustment. Every once in awhile things seem a bit "boring," but overall it is all for the better I think. I am still able to enjoy life....and have full range of emotions. Everything is just 'normal' now.