Dear T,

I am not doing so well...I have had a crap couple of days. I don't want to tell you about them. I don't want to answer your question about ranking how I am doing from 1--10 because I know I should be getting better. But I still feel like such a giant failure/waste of space. I know I need to keep coming to therapy. But I want to push you away like I have tried to push everyone else away. The thought of having to open up tomorrow makes me want to call your office right now and leave a message that I am not ever coming back to see you.