Wow .. I am so sorry for all the anger and loss piled on top of you right now and having to deal with that physical pain also. Damn, you are being hit from all sides and up and down

Honestly... I think it might be a good idea to look into going IP. I think if I was in your shoes I would want to go, You need to stay safe, your family needs you to be okay.

Keep posting, PM me anytime, Stay safe