And now I'm lashing out at everyone. I wrote off my mom and dad today I wordlessly did the same to my brother snd sister. My mom wants to talk about boundaries so I gave her some myself...how about we all **** off and die. I can't bring myself to appologize to her because Im legit mad still. I just wish I wasn't so sharp with my words. I snap at my hubs and he's walking on pins and needles around me it's pathetic. I can't stop thinking about dying but I have kids to worry about. I started seroquel today maybe this will help.

Is this what we do? Or is this me being an asshole? I might of been hypo for a few months with slight depression sporadically thru that but this crash is a hard one. Logically I know it will pass but at the same time stringing mysekf up in the shower to avoid ever having to feel so crappy doesn't seem like the worse idea, there's always options isn't there. I slept all day yesterday all night last all day today and it's 7:30 and I'm off to bed. Great quality of life eh.