((((Moxie)))))

I hope you give him the post.

If you can't get yourself to do it, maybe you can try telling him the 'child part' of you feels this way....as maybe distancing the feelings like that will help you get it out before you can get to a place where you feel you can fully discuss it with him.

Sorry you are hurting so badly. I really think it can help to talk about it. It's just so hard to bring it up, I know.