Please explain this to me. I'm a **** up. I'm told not to worry. I'm not worried I'm pissed I **** it up all the time. So what am I doing wrong. I told someone I like them and they don't ****ing get it. I show them I like them I'm blunt and they don't understand. Then they get a bf and are confused and didn't know I liked them what the **** am I doing wrong. I was blunt eddy straight to the point I knew the person well and they can just **** off, unless I like them as a potential friend.

What am I missing, I literally starve myself because I get this happening to me and people don't ****ing get me. I'm going to die soon from my choices from starving myself i have control over my body. I lost a waist size of my heaviest 40 to now below a 28. I'm still losing weight. I hate myself because im passed up. And no one knows I'm dying slowly. I have lots of issues I give compliments when needed, im not clingy, im bold and don't care about drama, but people leave me alone. Idk y. I'm aggressive, but confident. I'm not arrogant but assertive. I'm both a good guy and bad boy. I'm sensitive and heartless to myself and others. I'm honest from this post and whatever I say gets passed up all the time. For since I can't remember, I won't have a gf because I'm too good apparently bull ****ing ****. Not sorry get your **** together and don't **** with my emotions. I won't act immature you just don't hear from me or I can tell you how ****** you are despite me liking your flaws. You made a choice I am happy you made one but warn me before leading me on.
Maybe my body image wouldn't be so **** and I'm heading for a weight of 80lbs and dying because I'm not good as the next dude over you. Lastly for this for what I said I'm a selfish asshole whose self entitled not to feel so ****ing ****** by others opinions and actions and decisions. Girls don't want me and they don't even know me get the **** out and stay away. I look at porn and magazines when I'm depressed as a form of self harm to show what I can't achieve of what males have and brag about amongst my guy friends.
**** it and this ****.