as a long time sufferer and going on two months now trying to stabilize all i can say is that it will end............i know that..........once you do find the right meds it can be very good....i have had long periods of stability..........i now know what triggers the cycle and it was also because i had to go off a med so it is just a matter of finding another...........and i assume ALL the feelings are not mine and try to stay as detached as possible from them so i dont get too lost in them. hang in there. hopefully the meds kick in.